Sunday, July 31, 2011

Just a couple thoughts.....

Pretty worn out. The heat is killing my chunky butt!

Not been following wieght watchers like i all.

Debating getting a smart phone so i can be even more submerged in weight least my brain is trying to tell me a smart phone will make it easier to do.
Just doing it and sucking it up would make it easier to do as well.

Going to the movies tonight. Cowboys and Aliens I believe will be the movie of choice.

HUGs all! hope your day is good!:)

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Long day, stupid people are now going to cost me 4.99 a month and I think they sprinkle crack on these bunny crackers.

Well I tracked all my food so far today...well all but the two slices of bacon pizza, bunny crackers and siera mist I am presently drinking.

Yeah and before this "dinner" commenced I was 3 pp into my weeklies.....damn it.

I went to the farmer's market today and like Saturday it was all good in the hood and then went to poop. More on that in a minute. I also went to look at puppies. They were supposed to be chocolate labs. If they were labs I am the Easter Bunny. After that I ran and picked up items mom requested and took them to her. She was in a "fine" mood. Not sure what has had her twisted up the past few days but I hope it is just a phase. Then I went to grocery store and then home thinking "ah my day can be short one today and i can get home and do some job hunting and house work." such luck....

The dynamic duo from Saturday started in again today so I went to At&t to have them blocked. Oh they are blocked is every other dang person from calling in or me from calling out!!!! What the heehaw At&t???? Going back tomorrow and try to get it fixed.

I have found a new totally yummy snack...Annie's bunny snack mix. They are these cheese, buttery and pretzel snack cracker mix that are AMAZING! I am pretty sure they must be baking something extra in them as I am not usually this nutso over cheese crackers or pretzels.

Question for anyone still reading here....when you have stayed in your points, calories, carbs or whatever number range you follow to loose weight do you ever find your self screwing it up? Like today I had only gone 3 pp over until 45 minutes ago and I didn't think I just ate. I am thinking I was still somewhat hungry but not two pieces of pizza and bunny mix hungry. i would say I have now gone 30 + pp over for the day...ain't that some crap?

Why do I willingly sabotage myself like this?

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Sunday Goings Ons.

Well I thought by now I would feel better about yesterday but I don't
Well maybe it isn't just yesterday bothering me.
I feel upset still over the mess with the friend and his wife. I am ashamed of how I acted. That is not the person I want to be or become again. I am upset over how she thinks of me. That is not who I am and I have never nor will I ever think to try to take another woman's significant other.
I am still trying to figure out how a call to borrow a weed eater spiraled so screwedly out of the atmosphere like that did. There is something missing to this whole story and I hate that. I would rather know specifically what I did so I can not do it again or correct it.

My head and stomach have been torn up all night. Over yesterday, stress in general, and I guess just because they can. I have drank pepto like it is water and inhaled water like it is air trying to get things calmed and soothed. At least the excederine lessened the headache to a dull roar.

Today the boy and I are going to get the momma for dinner later. In between now and then I am going to hit up the grocery store and pull out my weight watchers material and reread it. I need to refocus and get this weight going...going...gone already! Or at least going...I have too much to get rid of for "gone" to be used yet;p

I am also planning for a bike ride after the sun is down and it hopefully cools off some tonight. Cross your fingers for me.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Insert Catchy Title Here.....

What a day!
It all started so ideally. I got up and got ready and went to the farmers market and bought some fabulous local prodouce. Then I went to a bakery a few streets over and bought some wonderful farm house wheat bread (just a teeny tiny round of it...couple pieces of toast here and there, maybe a sandwich)and a potatoe and bacon quiche. And four iced sugar cookies for my mom (who is still in rehab).

I then came home and started some laundry a pretended to do house work. Well about 10:30 am I got a call from a odd number. It hung up before I could answer and the voice mail was from a friend. I called back and said friend is wanting to borrow a weed eater from me because "he threw his cell phone out the door last night and has spent two hours looking for it in the weeds and can't find it" people know to hang up at this point. I am not smart apparently. Well some one starts screaming in the background and the phone goes dead. Again smart people (one of which I am not) just go on and don't call back. I called back and proceed to get cussed and blessed out by his wife. I made a very rude comment and hung up.

I have been called everything but white by this woman today. She says that since I am talking to another woman's husband I am trash and messing with him. Never mind he and I have known each other since I was a sophmore in high school and that is as far as anything we will or would ever be will be.
She proceeds to make more ugly comments and of course I, again a smart person wouldn't but I did, returned them in kind.
I am beyond ashamed.
She keeps texting me after I told her that if they are going to act like this I want nothing to do with either of them thank you very much.
And then it gets even more fun....She decided to start making phyiscal threats towards me.

Well with out sharing too much of what isn't mine to share this woman is not someone I would call "well balanced". So since she knows where I live and after some of the threats that were made were made I called the local police dept to check on what can be done.

Did you know in Ky if the party is in another county you might as well just go ahead and call the state police..... neither county has jurisdiction in the other. She is in another county from mine. We could live next door and if said line goes between the house it is state police business.

But I digress. I talked to an officer four hours later. He is going to call and smooth it over. He has called her and called me back and she states I stalk them and have been trying to break them up. The officer stated he told her not to be a child....I assume becuase 1) I have no clue where they live or a desire to find out and 2)I have been married with my husband for almost 12 years and as he knows us he finds it highly unlikely that I am the type of person she swears I am.
Unofficialy I happend to get a officer that is a long time friend. Honestly unplanned I just called and asked for assitance.
But he explained she has no need to contact me or come around me. End of subject.

I would like to say I feel better.... but I don't.
I would like to say my happy day that is now poopy could be happy again if I took a nap or feed some won't
Part of me owes her an apology for being a jerk to her. Well let's be honest a bitch is really whoo is was to her.
I wish I felt worse about this friendship that has abruptly ended....I am more upset about my ruined good day.
I feel bad about it...being upset more over the ruined good day and not the friendship.

On other topics .....
I think I am trying to start a kidnery infection. You know that twitch you get on the left or right side of your back that twinges like a shock and hurts with out warning...yeah it is here every few minutes. Great since I have no insurance and therefore no affordable dr.

I gained almost 5 pounds this last weigh in. I feel like dang it just typing that. So my 19 bumps back to 14ish lbs of a loss.

It has been six plus weeks since I have seen the hubs. I moved to moms to take care of the home she owns and her. It was too much driving two hours round trip just about every day (sometimes twice a day) to handle everything. The hubs rented an apartment and stayed behind because I refuse for him to quit his job and be jobless here. It is bad enough one of us is unemployeed. This really sucks and I am really missing him.

Oh and I ate the sugar cookies I bought for mom. I was stressed and yeah....they didn't stand a chance.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Making my way back to "normal".

Well week two or is it three back in my home town and in my momma's house is begining/begun. It is so strange having my son in my old room andmy self in another bed room and just being here in general.
I was sitting on the couch last night and realized how much i missed the "old comofortable pair of shoes" my momma's home is to me.

In other news I rejoined weight watchers and last week ate like normal 95% of the time to just see how bad i really do. Yeah i suck.....but it is ok. Weighed in yesterday and still manage to loose 7.8lbs. I hit 5% as well yeserday from my starting point and have manage to loose 19.8 pounds in all. Can I get DAMN GIRL! in here? lol
This week I am watching what i eat and choosing wisely while still tracking it all as i go. i want to see how uch better i can do and what doing better can do for me.

Not much else. Hope everyone's fourth was good. Mine was...well if you don't coun't getting hit in the head TWICE by bottle rockets! And I ws theonly one to get whacked with em! Even then it was still kind of funny...ofh and my son managed to land one of those rocket space ship fire works type deals on the neighbor's mercedees. Yeah a benz and my kid whacked it with a should have seen my face! No damage thank you God!