I went clothes shopping this weekend. I am effing miserable.
This is normally what makes a woman have her "aha" moment. And Gawd knwos i have had my fair share of them. Hell earlier last week (Monday after weightwatchers) some unknown dud walked up to me at the park's tennis courts and hands me a card saying "when weight watchers doesn't work call me i can make you loose the weight"....um ok thanks. He handed me a card for some fruit and veggie drink supplement (which might i add he couldn't even tell me what was in it except for "good stuff" which butt head is not true in my case. Your product has shellfish in it....of which I am allergic!
But any way I was astounded he just came up to me like that. And then i prayed he just didn't think I was so horrendously fat he had a "right or duty" to help me and jumped up to look in my vehicle to see if my weight watchers stuff was out where he could have seen it....no it wasn't. I am just that fat that now strangers feel they must come to my aid.
So yeah back to the clothes nightmare.....nothing at lane bryant fit unless i like tight and sleeveless. Avenue and Fashion bug, both usually somewhat of a fall back.....no damn luck. Catherines had something....but nothing i could afford or deal with. And when the heck do clothing makers decide they will just attach a necklace to the shirt and save me the troubkle of picking my own? Especially as i hate necklaces!
So now i will be wearing some slightly tight pants, a black cami and a shirt i can not button over my stomach to a job interview. I have a pic of it on my facebook if anyone still reading wants to check it out. I can't figure out how to get it posted here though. if you wanna see here is a link
But the bigger problem is this should be a wake up, aha moment, hello??? call or something and i just don't care. I am dissapointed and upset and hurting but yeah.....woohoo friggin hoo. And the shat of it? If i get the job where the he// am i gonna find clothes to where?
Another note.....a "high" point if you will.....(i am choking on the sarcasm) I am pretty much gonna quiit weightwatchers. I just pay to go. I don't follow it and haven't been. The more I focus on food and counting of things the more i want.
I have found two other things...one i like...one meh.
here is the one I like.
It is a 13 week class offered here in town and I like what the guy is saying. I mean honestly....how do i treat myself better if I don't even like myself?
the one i am mehing is
a girl i know first hand has tried it and is at 41 pounds lost and has energy and appetite control. both i could use.
I dunno folks. Someone do me a solid and sort me out ok? I at least hide the oreos.